im self-obsessed n i lyk it dat way..

2005-08-25T00:13:00.000-07:00

Life's a bitch..

im jus soo sick n tired...

i cant move on...

he's not lettg me.....

i nid my gfrens..

whr r yal??

lulu, he's cute ar?? hee..

lalala...

2005-06-14T00:12:00.000-07:00

im bored... was supposed 2go out w sanj.. bt his stupid boss didnt let him off early.. n no pt meetg afta dat cos i had to b hm by 11...

i miss dat kuku..hopefully will get 2 c him tmrw..

many gurls want their bfrens/hubbys to be lyk deir dad..sm compare dem to eir ex-bfrens.. all im askg is to haf sm1 lyk him.. is dat too much to ask 4?

mayb dats y im not satisfied..i kip comparg em.. i noe im bein unfair 2 em.. bt i'm willg to TRY n stop doin dat.. if in d first place i noe dat d effort is bein appreciated.. cos if it isn't, den il jus b wastg my blloooodyyy tym!

eh y do guys think i haf alot of guy frens ar?? I DUN! i haf gfrens.. i haf dion,meera,n d kukuz.. n i haf my guy frens frm sch.. n more or less dats it..

i noe lots of ppl..bt i dun hang out w em.. ha,until one day dey realise i exist n den we mit to catch up..but dats it.. ha cos d more u hang out w em,d more EVERYBODY WILL START LYKG SMBODY..so b4 dat stage cms,say bye n meet dem a few months later!

eh but my stansfield clique rocks la! i duno hw to describe it.. a bunch of different ppl..

*Dion-hot property.. got tons of ppl goin afta her..reali innocent!

*Louis-dion's bfren.. i get alot of incentive.. he carries my stuff too smtyms.. very sweet..

*Kelly-biker.. oldest in d grp bt crappy..has a secret crush on markie i tink! ha..

*Jg-stil searchg 4 a christian name..my sms-ing buddy.. nvr say die attitude.. ha my pool-guru!

*Daovong-a lady's man.. noes hw 2 behave w a lady.. been out w him once.. ha blew me ova! whn he starts makg u lauf, try stoppg!

*Kelvin-Mr Cool.. chooses who he wants to speak to..i was once the permanent vehicle commander of his car! ONCE la ar.. best bitchg partner in d grp! ;)

*Me-ha d one who tinks afta she has spoken!

i miss dem.. school startg 27 june! 1st tym im soo eager 4 sch to start! oh i got 2 more ppl to add in my clique..

*li fern-maths/stats lecturer..d guys in our clique love her! i tink she lyks hangg out w us too..heh

*markie!!!-he rocks! d one lecturer who teaches u outsyd class.. ask him anythng n he'l ans! i love this man.. ha truly,madly,deeply! n im sure im not d onli one! ;)

im soo bored..i tink im goin to sleep to waste tym.. yup exactly wat d kukuz are famous 4!

lizzie..get ur ass back to spore.. i miss u!

w8g..

2005-06-13T17:48:00.000-07:00

im w8g for sanj to kol me n take me out..

u BETA kol now... or else... hhhmmmmmm.....

im peelg!!

2005-06-12T15:31:00.000-07:00

CHIOBU!! ha..cm dwn 2 jln besar area durg d weekends.. and ask anione whr chiobu is.. n ul b escorted to blk 26,5th floor.. ha to my aunts flat.. n d chobu is.. *drumrolls pls* NEETA!! hahahahahahahahahahahahahah!!!

all d neighbourhood kids haf been hangg out quite often w my cuzins.. n nw w me.. their all darlgs.trust me.. sad part is dat all cm frm broken families.. parents all gn case one.. sm dropped out of sch.. all in gangs.. last nyt arnd 1am (ok dats this mrng) i saw one fella,isaac, 15yrs old.. gettg into his HEAD'S car.. parents dun giv a damn.. sad ar...

den i jus sit w dem dwnstairs in d evenings.. n dey tel me deir life stories.. dey so young yet seen more den me.. ha plus dey kip callg me chiobu.. d feelg quite nice! okok il stop it!

went out w shaik 4 a bit yday.. to develop fotos.. bskt d sentosa ones were nice BUT my cleavage was shown in almost all!!! den d paulaner ones were nice too BUT my hair cock up!! in almost all!!

u noe as i grow older,i realise i got more n more fotos which cant b shared w my fam.. ha. wonder wat'll happen if mum chances upon dem.. *wink wink*

oh met daovong 4 a bit too yday.. to collect pics.. oh liz,whn maurice s8 i went 4 sm modellg fotoshoot.. i think he meant tis one.. wasnt modellg la.. i jus stood der n tried to look pretty! kel n dion saw d pics.. stupid kel saw first n s8 ders one reali ugly one of me.. bskt.. he was ryt.. wat was i thnkg??

aniwae i was tokg to daovong n he told me---a few ppl saw d pics n asked his cuzin if dey cud get my no. to take fotos!!! hahaha!! me??? ok i duno whether he s8 al dat jus cos he wantd to make me smile or mayb it was true.. hehe..

had an sms-ing session w sm1.. yal wil die if u noe who.. bt ya.. it was all flirty.. dat person was tryg to butter me up..

i miss u more den u can eva imagine.. no butter..

no neeta.. be good.. stick to normal ppl...ha. its hard being 'single'... u can hardly think str8...

i want a proper DATE!!!!!!

cn smone tell me-whn a guy say he LIKES you..wat does it mean?

lyk LIKE as a nrml fren or more den dat??

im tired....

2005-06-10T18:41:00.000-07:00

Yea..Ms Rai has a blog again! heh...

Aniwae went for a chalet.. Wed to Fri.. jus Louis,Dion,Jg n me.. at dwntwn east..

Day 1
i came ova arnd 11pm.. had dinner w my fam first..it was my sis's b'day..oh shoot! i jus rememberd i stil havent got her a present! ha..who's surprised? aniwae met dion n louis at pasir ris mrt,n dion drove us der in her blue van.. ha not bad la her drivg..

we managed to get a rm der for one nyt for onli 60bucks.. all of dions fam were der too..d supposedly kel-look-alike too..bt (sorie la dion) i tink our kel's more gd lookg n has a beta attitude! heh.. wud haf been easier if dey conversed in mandarin.. bt they conversed in cantonese so ya louis n me were abit lost..

kept callg jg.. he was takg a cab dwn frm ang mo kio. finali he called me to tel me his cab got into an accident! he wasnt hurt (thank god) bt ya now he takes life more seriously! ha..

we den went to play pool.. ha i won! tai ko one la.. Dion called for the wrong hole.. bt i wasnt too bad either.. played til 2am..

nws whn d 'fun' began.. went back to our rm.. n we playd silly games.. ok we had 6cans of carlsberg,1 btl of long islands,lime n orange bicardi..

each person took one card n, w/o lookg, puts it on their forehead 4 d aders to c.. d person w d biggest card has to drink up d mix i.e. once u c d cards d aders haf-u agar agar noe whether u haf to drink anot.. so u pour into a cup a bit of a drink. all do d same. n d loser drinks it up!

im tellg u-i love long islands-bt whn u add it w all d ader rubbish.. it gets soo sick! bt dat wasnt bad.. d worst was d orange bicardi! it was SICK!!

i won a couple of rounds. evryone had their turns alrdy.. ha louis tan was drunk afta 2 cups.. lyk seriously.. i thot dion was bad..but louis was RED all ova AND his eyes were reallliiii red!!

i finalli had my turn.kena hat-trick.. so suay... afta d hat trick.. i went to d toilet n i puuuukkkkeeed! ha.. n den back to d game.. we drank until all finish.. xcept for d carlsberg.. so we became creative.. we added carlsberg w coke n GREEN TEA.

i hate green tea.i hate green tea.i hate green tea.

it was baaad..

n den we bought more drinks.. cant remember wat.. finali went to bed arnd 4+.. i wasnt drunk bt ya felt abit too sick..

while i was still settlg in2 bed.. i heard a soft snore.. oh no.. n den it got louder.. den it went as loud as a car engine.. n den.. lyk a HARLEY DAVIDSON'S!!

slept soo little dat nyt..

DAY 2

we wnt all d way to sentosa to tan! cab fare-$17.20! gt in2 my trikini.. yes liza,its more den a bikini..! played alot! stupig JG kept pushg my head unda water-lyk continuosly!

drank sooo much salt water!yucky.. had a sore throat afta dat..

d showerg bit was a killer.. my skin was burng n der were soo many ppl queing up to use the showers! so dion n me used the outside ones-those w/o privacy. bt stil in d ladies la..ha no choice. we happily shampooed our hair THREE TIMES! d ppl queing mus b cursing us as dey watchd us! washd off all d sand.. i tink we too 45mins to bathe! den we changed in d toilet..

took a bus back to tampines.. it was lyk a 1 n a half hr ryd.. den took a bus to d chalet.. was abt 7pm by d tym we reachd...bookd a rm for d nyt..another 60 bucks..

had a bit of bbq.. n yes was supposed to meet Manoj.. didnt happen.. not in d mood to go der.. nw y'al noe y im tired.. tired of men in my life.. wateva..

jg had to b in camp by 11pm..so dion drove him al d way to amk.. ha at d slope to exit d carpark, d van stalled. she jus cudnt get it startd! luckily the kel-look-alyk was leavg too n he startd it for her!

went to play bowlg at 12am..playd it 2am.. ha i lost! nuthg new..der were two boys der..abt 15-16yrs old..at first we thot they were checkg dion's cousin out..she's 16.. n dion n me cant stabd her!u noe d typical gurl-"look at me kind"..BUT they were check US OUT! feels gd to b admired by younger men! ahahah.... n den we slept! sleep was gd. bt it was freakg cold.

Day 3

woke up at 6.30. too cold. louis was supposed to get up at 7am n leave for camp. so i w8ed for his blanket. plus he was sleepg on d bed below(less cold) so i wantd to sleep der.

he finali got up 7+.. n happily put his blanket on his gfren! ha al i cud do was curse unda my breath! bt i got his bed n slept thruout! checkd out at 1030.. had breaky..

HOME SWEET HOME!! aircon.fan.me.bed. woke up at 5pm. met Manoj onlyn.. he apologised etc. i wasnt in d mood.

stil m not in d mood. so ya. d chalet was quite fun.esp d drinkg bit.but im not in d mood la. ha felt lyk i was writg sm reported speech-essay..

i dun haf a tagboard yet... shaik!! whr r u???